Melissa Fenwick

I would like to take a moment to thank all of the DMLE for everything they do. Not just for trying to find my sister, but for the fact that you continue to try. Some days you earn victories, other days your services come too late. I know that you do your best and for that I am forever thankful. I am thankful that you find the hope and determination to keep trying.

There may be some bad people in the world, but they are not the majority. Even in the darkest hours it gives me comfort to know that good people are everywhere. My sister Catherine was a good person. A great person. She was the rare soul who could make people smile just by walking into a room. She was patient, kind, gentle and loving. She will be remembered by all those who met her. By all of her friends, family and the parents who used her help to bring their children into the world. She will not be remembered as a tragedy or a warning to muggleborns. She will be remembered as a great person who did great things. Her memory will be a happy one.

I don't know why you did this to her. I'll never understand. I can only hope that one day you can release the pain and darkness in you that makes you commit such monstrous deeds. You must be so terribly unhappy to think this will make things better. You might have tortured her, but she led a happy life. Her last wishes weren't of anger and revenge, but of her family and making sure her puppy would be taken care of. That's the kind of person she was and you didn't change that. I know in my heart that she is in a better place. I wish all those hurt in the attack a speedy recovery. Your service did not go unnoticed or unappreciated.

( My sister... )

[Friends]
The service for Cat is going to be on Wednesday morning. We're going to keep it small. There will be a memorial service Friday for others to attend. If you'd like more details I can let you know. Thank you for your unending support.

[Friends & Family]
[edited after this]She's going to be fine. They're going to find her and bring her home. We'll get her the best medical treatment and we'll make sure she is safe and sound. She is going to be fine.

They tried.

[Catherine]
You're going to be fine. You're a good person and I love you.

Please, be fine.

[edited in] I'm sorry you were alone. I'm sorry we weren't there to make it better. I am so sorry.

[Charlie]
Good ev Hi! I hope you don't me warding you. It's nothing serious, I was only hoping we could chat for a bit. If that's okay! I totally understand if it's not. The thing is, I think our friends are convinced we can't be in the same room. Which is completely silly, right. I don't know what they think is going to happen but I would like them to know that it's okay. I mean, we share a lot of the same friends and I don't want them feeling awkward. So maybe we should hang out. In group settings or. If you want to. No pressure.
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I know Obliviation is an acceptable form of magic. I have heard and understand its uses and purposes. I also appreciate that it is a specific career with specific training and guidelines. That said, it still freaks me out. We are tampering with the minds and memories of people without their consent. It's not foolproof, there are mistakes. We have found it socially acceptable to tamper with a individuals mind without their consent knowing there may be permanent damage. Why are we so okay with taking that risk for them?

If something does go wrong they will never know why. Their lives could be changed forever with no recourse. I'm probably overly sensitive but we are risking brain damage. Brain damage. That could have been me before I turned eleven.

I don't pretend to know the man that was captured or his family. That said, I am shocked by all the rumors and gossip I have been hearing. Yes, a man was accused of being a Death Eater but that doesn't automatically make his sons one. Has there been any evidence of that or are people going on assumption? It isn't right to write off someone or point fingers because of who their parents are. It isn't right to accuse them of horrid acts because of something they can't control. That's a little bit like Death Eater mentality, don't you think?

All my shoes for the the left foot keep running away. I sense a conspiracy.

[Friends & Family]
You know what makes me feel better after a long week? Pizza. Also, photographs. I can't share my pizza with you, but I can share these. Enjoy!

( Magical Photos Ahoy! )

A stranger patted me on the head today.

What's the correct response to that?

What I like most about these journals is the fact that certain patterns never fail. A bunch of people will have very serious and intense conversations, followed by a wave of people with fluffy animals. Judging by the level of thoughtful debate going on right now I can only image the cute fur balls to come. The fish were lovely but I'm ready for puppies in outfits, please!

I know it's not exactly fair of me to demand things from others when I have nothing in return. I can't give you a pet but I can give you a picture of me with a snowman. ( That's close enough, right? )

[Viola]
How was the wedding? Was she gorgeous? Of course she was gorgeous! I want to see pictures of your dress!

I've found the soundtrack to my life and that soundtrack is ABBA. They speak to me.

Benjy & Catherine:
I've been thinking of moving back into my flat. Thoughts?

The weight loss potion does indeed work. Sort of.

I was hoping it would target my stomach but it seems to have gone after my arms and legs instead. Now my stomach looks even bigger in comparison, so that's a bit disappointing. Oh well, that's what I get for trying to cheat. I was never one to exercise. I think I'll still wait a few years before giving it a go.

Now, I have a batch of brownies to eat to celebrate my recent weight loss.

[Female Friends]

GIRLS NIGHT! Give me a day that works best for you. I'm talking ridiculous facials, vast amounts of food with zero nutrients and dance numbers. I have a flat that's going empty so it's time to put it to good use. Plus, I really want to see everybody at the same time. Think of it as a giant adult sleepover, because it's going to be a giant adult sleepover.

While I was at the butchers, he was having a very lively discussion on what color of centaur he'd be. By the time they got to me they decided I would be one of those miniature pony things. I quickly argued that I am not that short and I would be sure to topple over all the time. Not practical. Still, the more we argued the logistics of it the more I imagined myself as half miniature pony. It would be pretty adorable.

[FEMALE Friends + Cat]
I went out on a date Thursday thanks to Viola's matchmaking skills. Turns out Leonidas the lion tamer is a Gryffindor. He also believes that grunts are an acceptable form of communication, mediwitches are glorified first aid kits and he has an odd obsession with showing off all his scars.

He's also one of the best snogs I've ever had, so.

[Viola]
You're getting married!

Sorry, had to be done. It's still exciting to write. How are you doing? How is everyone at the circus doing? I hope things have calmed down for everyone and they're starting to forget all about it.

[Iwan]
Why haven't you proposed yet? Have you proposed yet? Not to rush you but life is short. Also, I've been practicing my surprised face for when she tells me. She'll never suspect I knew. Never. You two will be so happy!
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Why do love hearts taste so bad? I always think I like them. I always manage to forget and then bam, I have a mouth full of chalk. I know that they'll suck me back in with their messages of love and I'll give them another chance.

I'm in an abusive relationship with a sweet.

[Private]

These are the people that have me on a list. These are the people watching me. Those people were innocent. Those children were innocent and they were tortured. That could have been my parents. I don't understand.

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[Private to Charlie]

Did you see the ne Hey! It was nice seeing you the other day. I hope I didn't make you feel awkward or anything. We can still be friends, right? I mean, I hope we can. I wouldn't want to make you feel uncomfortable. Not that you felt uncomfortable but I wanted to put that out there.

Matilda seems great!?.

[/Private]

[Private to Narcissa]

Hello! I'm only checking in to see if Draco is feeling any better. I do hope so, he seems like such a sweet boy.

[/Private]

I saw someone help a complete stranger when they dropped their things. It wasn't anything special but it was a reminder that there are genuinely nice and caring people out there. They might not get the headlines in the news, but they're all around us. It's a comforting thought.

[Private]

I will not call in sick. I will NOT call in sick. I WILL NOT call in sick.

I will not spend the night at my parents' house. I will not spend the night at my siblings' flats. I will do the adult thing and curl up under my covers with my bear. Alone. I am an adult. I will not be frightened of a bunch of bullies.

[/private]

Funny, no one seemed to have a problem with this mudblood healing injured witches and wizards. Jerks

[edit after this] I'll never understand why you hate us so much.

[Private to Friends & Family]

One more reminder why I was never suited for trauma. I know you can't help everyone but that doesn't make it any easier.

Please stay safe.

Food over the fire(place)? Check.
Beer? Check.
View of the stars? Check.

All I'm missing is a shirtless guy playing guitar and it would be a proper camping trip!

How is it that I always manage to lose my left shoe? I take them off at the same time. I put them in the same place. It waits until some morning when I'm running late and runs away. I must have a one-legged ghost messing with me. The only logical explanation.

What a nice ghost. Now I have another excuse to buy more shoes.

[Benjy!]

BENJY! I got you a houseplant for your new place. It's a cactus to represent your resilient and unkillable (new word!) love. So don't kill it. BAD OMEN.

[Cat]

Want to go shopping and gossip about boys? Pretty please!

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